Day 20

Today is my last day off before starting my big girl job and finally making some money. I couldn't tell you what i was going to do if i had to stay home for 2 more weeks. I don't know how much longer i will have that attitude...but for now i have got to get out of this apartment.

I have surprisingly done really well about spending money though. Usually when i get really bored i go to the mall, or target, sometimes i even resort to Walmart just to find something to buy. I am super good at talking myself into buying something i don't really need just because. and it doesn't have to be something big....it could be a hairbrush, or a packet of pens, or nail polish,and before you know it i spent $50 all on things i don't need....but talked myself into need. Its a malicious process i put myself though....but none the less i have prevented myself from doing it for an entire two weeks. I did try to go shopping one time, but in my defense i had a gift card left over from my birthday that i had saved for a time like this and couldn't find anything i wanted....thats always how it happens. When i don't have money i find a million things i want and when i do i cant find one. Any who..

I realized today that there were a lot of things i told myself i was going to do with my two weeks off that i have yet to accomplish as in

• workout
• eat healthy
• scrapbook the last four years of my life
• keep the apartment spotless
• clean out my old room
• organize the bathroom
• study for NCLEX at least 2 hours a day
• make dinner every night
• find new recipes

I can tell you that i have not worked out except once since we have moved in because i simply don't feel like it....plus its so hot outside i sweat five pounds walking from my door to my car. If you knew what i have eaten in the last 48 hours you would be like "how in the world is she not 500 pounds". I have for the most part kept the apartment clean but i could do better. I have cleaned out bits and pieces of my old room...but you would be able to tell because now not only has my sister destroyed her own room she is moving into mine....but i do still have a lot of work to do in there....its just gets so hot in that house. I have not even started on the bathroom. I have studied for NCLEX at least and hour a day...but i need to be putting more into that.

I have only made dinner 3 times since we came home from our honeymoon and one of those dinner's was a frozen pizza. In our defense again we have been going out with friends a lot or Eric has worked late and we pick up our own dinners. I have found new recipes, bit to be honest i am afraid to try them. I looks so good in the picture then i look at the ingredients and i am like....i would never eat that....so i am still working on that. I did get atleast half the list done....

The cat is still a little angry with me although she did sleep with us last night and is sitting beside me right now....i still feel terrible.

I am off to the grocery store to stock up on stuff for lunch and stuff. I am so excited to start work and deliver some babies!!!! YAY!!!!

Day 19- Bringing Home Kitty

For those who do know i saved a cat two years ago who was born under our porch and abandoned by her mother. I started feeding her because the others in her litter died on Eric and I as we were tying to get them help. I felt so bad because we couldn't save them so i since she was the only one left i was determined to save her. I tried to find a home for her for weeks but no one wanted a cat so i some how convinced my mom to let me keep and she has been mine ever since. Her name is Ellie and although she is one of the most unlovable cats i have ever met...beside the point...she is my baby. I have had her since she was around 4-5 weeks old. I never really liked cats till i had her. Eric and i always saw ourselves as dog people. But after raising a cat and partially helping raise a dog i would have to say that i am partial to cats....why you ask?? They are for the most part fully self sufficient. As long as she has food, litter, a place to look out the window, and a warm place to sleep she is happy. She occasionally wants a back rub, but other then that she comes around when she wants, uses the potty when ever she wants...and most of the time she even reminds me that she is hungry and there is nothing in her bowl....like i said she takes care of her self. she even gives herself a bath!! haha!!

There is only one problem i ever had with cats....the scratching. I tried everything....scratch post, cat nip, scratch pad....you name it i tried it. I finally resorted to declawing her fron paws when she was almost a year old....i hated doing something like that to her....but in the long run it was beneficial for her to because this way she could roam the house and we didn't have to worry about her. That was a year and a half ago. We brought her to our new home about two weeks ago. I forgot to mention earlier that Ellie is afraid of everything....like if you move to fast and she doesn't see you coming she sprints....and well she started scratching our brand new leather couch with her back claws. I was so upset....because i knew what this meant. I hated doing that to her because i just feel like taking away the fronts would already take away what defense she did have...but now she doesn't have any....it took alot for me to do it. Its not like we can glue them back on....they are gone. i still feel really bad but you can't train a cat to stay off the couch....they are smart but i think when it come to rules they just done care. I knew eventually it would come down to this because she is one of those cats that does not liked to be messed and she will let you know it....with her mouth or with her claws, and since we know kids are in our future eventually or the safety of the child and for her own well being i knew we would be doing it eventually.

Today when i brought her home and saw her bloody paws and the look on her face I cried. I feel like i did it to her through selfishness and connivence. I know in the next few days she will get over it and i will to.

Day 7- One Week Married

Sooo. i have olny done this a few times and when i have it was to vent about someone i didn't like or someone who made me mad or whatever else was going on in my high school life at the time. Well i am not in high school any more.....i am not even in college anymore.....nor can i check single under marital status on paper work at the doctor's office.
So in case you dont know me or you didn't catch the hint above I will give you some background. I am a recent college graduate from Columbus State University School of Nursing and got my dream job the day after graduation. I am now employed with a local hospital in labor and delivery, which, again if you know anything about me you know this suits me very well and although i have not started my job the time i have spent there told me that l&d is what i was made to do. I am a christian and very involved in my church. I am also a newlywed as you can tell by the title of the blog. It was a long time coming. We had been dating for five years, and engaged for three of those years. Yes i know what you are thinking " 3 years is way too long to be engaged"... first i was only 19 when i got engaged and no we were no where near financially ready to get married. second i was only a sophomore in college and it was very important that i finish my degree before getting married... so there you go. I also love for people to tell me i cant do something, because i love the satisfaction of know that i proved them wrong . I had people tell me my SAT scores showed that i was not going to be sucessful in college...WRONG. In fact i finished my degree in 4 years flat, with HOPE scholarship all four years. I had those that told me nursing would be to hard and that should probably choose something easier....once again WRONG. Now i was not an A student, but i did make it through. Now off my soapbox....on to what i really want this to be about.
I really want this blog to be about my experiences as a new wife and as a nurse. This is all new for me and i would like to document it really for myself.
Since i am not working right now and only been married for a week, of course i dont have much to talk about. But I can tell you the hardest part of being married so far, and i am sure everyone has this problem, but i guess the best way to put it is just living with each other in the same space. Eric and I both have what i would like to call "first child syndrome". We are bossy, and stubborn, and like things done our way. It has been a challenge letting him do things his way, as well has him letting me do things my way, which is the right way of course...lol...jk. So there it is. I will try to update every once in a while. I cant wait to see where it takes me.